Journey to Three...Or so

We got the first part right but the second...well, not so much.  This is no doubt a journey but three has now become four!  I'm sure you all thought I'd fallen off the edge of the earth but rest assure that I'm alive and well.  I just came down with a very mean and ferocious case of morning sickness.  Did your jaw just hit the floor?  Yeah, it's taken us a few months to reel ours back into place.  We always planned to have both biological as well as adopted but nothing prepares you for a positive pregnancy test.  The other thing that no one can prepare you for is morning sickness.  I thought the flu was the worst it got but I now know that's false.  I never realized how utterly miserable I could feel.  I've never been so happy to wake up feeling normal!  Anyway, enough about that.  On to the more interesting facts.  I'm four months pregnant.  Due date is March 4th.  We don't find out gender until next month.  Yes this affects our adoption (sniffle).  Our agency thinks it is important that we focus on one baby at a time so our name is pulled off the wait list until our bio baby is four months old.  At that time we have the option of going back on the list whenever we feel ready.  Luckily, we do not have to start back at the end of the line, we get inserted back into line with others that are in the place we were when I got pregnant.  Therefore, we got pulled out of line after waiting 15 months and we will be re-inserted into line with others that have been waiting 15 months at the time we return to the line.  We loose no money in the process other than a few more update fees here and there such as updating our home study and medicals.  Nothing substantial.  I'm heart broken to have the adoption put on hold yet excited to welcome the child growing in my belly.  It's been a roller coaster of emotion.  My life as a whole has been a different journey than my ideal plan but I can say with confidence that the Lord has proven his ways are better than my ways.  I could never have planned a life so full of joy and surprise.  I laugh at how vanilla my plans are in hind sight.  I will try to continue to post occasionally but with the adoption on hold it won't be every month. I will let you know of the big happenings but am hoping to spend the next several months enjoying rest and quiet with Daniel as we prepare for the changes and journey ahead.